I Was a Topper. Now I Struggle to Finish a Page — The Battle No One Sees

Have you ever looked around and felt like everyone’s moving ahead… while you’re still stuck in the same spot? Not lazy. Not broken. Just tired. Just confused. Sometimes life feels like walking through fog. You want to move, but something inside freezes.

You open a book to feel better — read two pages — and close it. Your brain tells you to do good things, yet holds you back from anything unfamiliar. It’s exhausting.

Life moves fine… until it doesn’t. A sudden speed breaker hits — and you spend months trying to climb over it. Meanwhile, others seem to zoom past effortlessly. People you once sat next to in class — those who scored less than you — are now way ahead. And you're stuck here, fighting your own mind.

And the worst part? You can’t even explain it to anyone.

This is where anxiety, depression, and comparison quietly enter. Not like loud storms — more like shadows that settle in. They take away your focus, your habits, your health, and slowly… your sense of self.

I was always a 95% student. A perfectionist. A doer. But adulting hit different. My job made me question everything — “Is this what I’m meant to do?” And suddenly, I didn’t feel smart anymore. I just felt... lost

So why am I writing this?

Because maybe you're feeling this too. Maybe you're also silently battling thoughts no one sees. And maybe writing this — sharing this — is my first tiny step out of the fog.

If this resonates, subscribe. And if you’re quietly rebuilding too… I see you. We’ll figure this out — together.

What’s your speed breaker? When did you first feel like life was slipping out of your hands?Hit reply — I’d love to read your story.

— Ria 🕊️